whatever

[starzki]

I've been noticing that I've been losing weight lately.  I guess it's that time of year.  One of the nice things about being a little older is that I've noticed the cycle that goes along with my body.  Around the beginning of July, I start to lose a lot of my winter weight, getting down to my slimmest in late October.  Then I manage to keep most of the weight off until mid-January or so when it is so cold outside and it makes me warm to eat.  I used to diet insanely and do unhealthy things to my body, but fighting it now just seems silly.  I'll gain any weight that I lost and then lose all the weight I gain just based on life.  Nothing's permanent.  Anyway, the point of all of this was that I need pants.  I want to buy them now before I get thinner because I want them to still fit next March.  But I also want the smaller numbered size of pants just so that I will feel thinner and pretty.  This is when being a girl kind of sucks.  I'm too socialized in society's worshiping of thinness and beauty.  I can't seem to help but want it.

I did have a productive day, though.  I had a lovely talk with one of my committee members.  She seems to think that I'm brilliant (yay!).  And I think I have the outline for one of my preliminary questions sketched out.  I can't believe it, but I'm actually beginning to move forward with this whole process of getting out of school.  Amazing.

What was the purpose of this entry?  I forgot.  Maybe just to ramble because the Mother isn't picking up the phone.

At least the Puppy still loves me.