calming... down...
Oct. 5th, 2005 07:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
starzkiWow, I'm a little on the hypersensitive side today.
I sat down with my classmates/colleagues/friends for lunch today and we had this extreme bitch session. It was a little cathartic and I love that they're so smart that it turned into this whole over-analyzed discussion about gender and race relations that we all deal with. And then we made plans to go out next Wednesday and talk about something lighter, like the kind of pants that look best on us (pleated vs. flat front, you be the judge).
But all of that and then a few hours of transcribing has kind of primed me for a fight.
Then a few minutes on the internet and I about blew my top. The why isn't so important. I wrote an email that I think was appropriately diplomatic and nothing I'll regret later. We'll see. I'm not angry at any person or thing, just a situation in general that has been festering for a while that came to a head. It's so stupid, too, but I had to say something.
And it's all probably because I talked to K today. She takes shit from no one. And she's brilliant. It makes me feel less guilty for being a bitch, myself. It's all about self-preservation. Being a nice girl seems to be an invitation for some people to walk all over you. Fuck that.
I sat down with my classmates/colleagues/friends for lunch today and we had this extreme bitch session. It was a little cathartic and I love that they're so smart that it turned into this whole over-analyzed discussion about gender and race relations that we all deal with. And then we made plans to go out next Wednesday and talk about something lighter, like the kind of pants that look best on us (pleated vs. flat front, you be the judge).
But all of that and then a few hours of transcribing has kind of primed me for a fight.
Then a few minutes on the internet and I about blew my top. The why isn't so important. I wrote an email that I think was appropriately diplomatic and nothing I'll regret later. We'll see. I'm not angry at any person or thing, just a situation in general that has been festering for a while that came to a head. It's so stupid, too, but I had to say something.
And it's all probably because I talked to K today. She takes shit from no one. And she's brilliant. It makes me feel less guilty for being a bitch, myself. It's all about self-preservation. Being a nice girl seems to be an invitation for some people to walk all over you. Fuck that.
